December 25
Dear God,
Thank you for Your precious Son, Jesus Christ. Forgive me for the moments when I feel weak and insecure in Your arms. I know this comes from my own lack of faith. Sometimes it feels like I believe simply because it is the right thing to do—and it is—but there are times when my faith feels artificial, shallow, and easily shaken when tested by the trials of life.
There are days when the darkness feels heavy, the kind that makes belief itself feel difficult. I know that life does not become easier simply because we believe in You, but I also know that You remain our hope and our light in dark places.
This has been one of the hardest years of my life. I have walked through loss that still feels unreal, a grief that lingers quietly and constantly. I miss my mother deeply—her presence, her voice, her touch. There are moments when the ache feels unbearable, and yet I trust that she is now in Your care.
This year also brought reminders that some relationships, no matter how meaningful, are only meant for a season. I am learning that not all pain can be repaired, and sometimes the only path forward is forgiveness, release, and letting go.
So much happened in the first half of the year, and the second half has been about survival and recovery. We faced seasons of lack that tested our endurance and humility. There were moments when provision felt uncertain and the weight of responsibility felt overwhelming.
Yet, even then, You came through.
You provided through family and friends. You kept food on our table, a roof over our heads, and the ability to keep moving forward one day at a time. If You were not a faithful God, I know things could have been far worse.
Thank You for keeping us close to You. Thank You for my children, who have been light in some of my darkest days. Please continue to protect us from harm and surround us with Your peace.
Father God, I pray for an exceeding and abundant year ahead—one marked by health, provision, and restoration. As I step into a new season of life, I acknowledge that I do not have much to offer except my heart and my life. These I give to You freely.
May You find them pleasing. May You be honored.
I love You. I place my heart, my home, and my future into Your holy and mighty hands.
I pray all of this in Jesus Christ’s Name.
Amen.